"I come not to bury Caesar, but to praise him."--Marc Antony

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "The letter of apology written by Brandon Avery White (Ed. note: This is being published exactly as written by White)
"'Well ladies and gentalmen, family of Catlin Albert Opissinow . . .
I've wrote this letter of apology. Not for forgiveness, but to express my hurt and sorrow. I cant imagine the stress and pain I've caused to you and yours. I dont know what its like to burry a Father, Son or Brother. For that I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart! Their's nothing I can do to bring your Father, son or Brother back. I hope this sentence and apology will bring some closure, that you and yours have long waited.
I my self will use this sentence as a stepping stone to better my life and to make sure that this dose not happen again. I've done alot of thinking in the two years I've been in custody. I realized that drugs and alcohol are not the way to happyness, but the direction to a dark path. I know many of you havent seen me show any emotions or remorse. Thats because I've been unsure of how to show my feelings. In these two years Ive learned to express some feeling not in word but in letters I'd write to my family. But still words or letters cant express the hurt I feel for the presure I have caused your family, I'm sorry.
I know what its like to lose a member of family, but nothing like this. I know you think Im a monster but inside Im really a good person. From this day forward I will look only to my future and not to my past. I will use my past as a reminder of why I keep moving forward and not look back.
Every night I sit in my cell wishing I could go back in time. Not only to that night but to where my troubles all started. If I could do that I would make everything better. so that I would still have my freedom, but most of all you would have your dad, son and brother. I dont know if this pain ever goes away but if it dont then I will take it with me to my grave.
This is my first apology I have ever wrote and hope to be my last. I thought about this the day after I plead guilty. I wasn't sure if it was a good idea, but after October 15, 2009, hearing your pain. I new this was something I had to do. I wrote this in my own words and with no help from anybody. This is striat from my heart and thank you for taking the time to listen to me.'"
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This apology above is incredibly heavy. Apparently Mr. White is sitting in his cell serving a murder sentence. A man who is not very accomplished with words is doing his best to express on paper remorse he cannot seem to express in words from his own mouth. I hope he means it.
It would be difficult, if not impossible to forgive this man after having had a loved one taken away by violence. It is beyond my comprehension. I do pray he finds forgiveness in prison and so does the family wronged.

I had a good night at work tonight.
It is a fun job where I get to pray for people's needs and truly encourage them on their path in life. This path is not easy. It was never promised to be easy. Still, one needs encoursagement, and I have found that this is one of my longsuits spiritually. the thing I think I need to do is be encouuraging to myself.
I have been going through a trial lately. I know focusing on God will help me get through.

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